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Harmony Holiday's avatar

I don’t think that many sounds can or need to be assimilated in the same radius on one or two days. It’s a madhouse and maybe a microcosm of the state of this country each year cause though cloying woodstock seemed sincere

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Daniel Samir Cyran's avatar

Your writing has teeth. Moments of love and loathing. Thank you for continuing your work.

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Daniel Samir Cyran's avatar

My experience with festivals was as a younger naiver position. College age like yourself. What I remember is a loss of faith in society and a faith that I don’t think society ever earned. At Bumbershoot around the 00s, Ben Harper closed the festival with My Own Two Hands. And I stayed late as one of the last to leave cause his set sparked some things I had to sit with. Anyways, the venue was littered with all kinds of trash and bottles and everything else. That always stands out in my mind when I hear that song to this day. Anyways, yes, thank you for continuing. Peace and Grace

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David Kane's avatar

I really, really loved this. The line about the lifelong adolescence required to survive America hits especially hard.

I didn't get into concerts until after college, but I grew up next to Disneyland CA and visited so frequently, that I realized their plan was for the "magical experience" to last forever for everyone. There was no plan for growing up, no model for a real adult to become. The failure or refusal to recognize the conveyor belt of disillusionment they had built struck me as the rusty fulcrum upon which our entire culture rotates.

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Jasmyne Gilbert's avatar

This is validating. Music festivals are my own personal hell, and Coachella seems like the ninth circle. I’ve been to a few because I keep trying to torture myself into enjoying the experience. I want to get it! I wanna dress up and have fun and dance, too. Nope. My body and mind hate them.

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Kasajja's avatar

Beautiful writing and reflections!

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Kasajja's avatar

This might be a dumb question but what you do mean when you say audiences have outsourced their hedonism to the simulation?

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kay's avatar

I've only skimmed this so far but I instantly recognized the homage you paid to Bjork in the story about your grandparents, one of my all-time favorite songs. Looking forward to giving this piece the close reading it deserves.

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alvaro parra's avatar

I too was there in 2002. You brought back a lot of scandalous memories. No one writes quite like you!

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Chris Norris's avatar

Nice full rendition of a cultural moment that’s often glossed over. One Coachella experience I *don’t* recommend: attending it solo, as a reporter. For reasons I still don’t fully get, that early-00s day/night was one of the loneliest of my life.

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Harmony Holiday's avatar

I can imagine. I would love to read about that. I feel like every writer has to experience it at least once.

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Harmony Holiday's avatar

the attending alone I mean

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Chris Norris's avatar

Thanks for saying this.

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